So everyone I love the fact that I don't care what people think about me anymore. I remember a time I used to be scared to talk, terrified of other critisism. I'd do whatever it took to fit in, but now i've realised I'd take that all back, and do whatever it takes to stand out. I don't know why I ever wanted to fit in, to fit in with what? Expectations? No.

Oh one thing that annoys me is the immaturity of some people. I mean serioiusly grow up. Maturity isn't what you wear or who you know, it's about your actions and how you handle things. I wish maturity was a physical thing I could seriously just throw at people, that would be just devine <3

I'm going to try my hardest at school this year, it's my last one so I'll make it count...I have revision notes and sticky notes all on my walls, trying to study for SAC's, I'm actually excited for them, which is really strange...and somewhat stupid.

Anyway. catch.

Frustration

I don't know exactly why I'm so frustrated today, I just am. I think it may have to do with the fact that I have no idea what to do with myself right now. I really need to take up a hobby or something. I'm putting so much effort and work into my school work, I really miss just hanging out with friends and having fun. And the leadership thing too. Okay, so maybe a a year or so ago I was quiet, and had no idea how to lead anybody, and took on little responsibility, but that's so much different now. I feel I'm contributing to nothing around here, nothing. If I try to help out, everyone just looks at me as if I'm the worst person on Earth. I hate peoples controlling words and rude remarks, and they base me off of what they knew I was 2 years ago. I've grown too big for this small town talk, I need to get back into the world again, the one thing that seperates me from them.